Archive for November 2nd, 2011

On both Kemetic Orthodoxy and KIN forums, there are places for people to request prayers. Until now, I have avoided those forums, being far too susceptible to news of others’ pain and misfortune. I would love to lend a voice, but keeping a strong and positive spirit while praying for terrible things is frequently beyond my capacity, let alone doing that for several different things in a row.

However, I figured out a way that I can give my prayers to those who need them without dropping myself into a state of reflection upon all the terrible things in the world. I bought a blank book, wrote on the inside cover a book blessing and caveats for safety (such as “for the highest good for all concerned” and “with harm to none”), and wrote the dates, names, and prayers inside for those who had posted recently.

The key, however, is that I haven’t written anything in English. It’s all in Kalash, a conalph of mine (visual example). I can write fluently in Kalash, but I can’t read it just by skimming like I can English, so I can write something down without being distracted and weighed down by all the prayers I’d written previously.

Thus, I can pray for those prayers written within to be heard and answered, focus on the book as a whole, and stay steady and positive.

It’s a similar to the idea of a sigil or other symbol, created to represent a goal/desire in other forms of magic (chaos magic, I’m lookin’ at you) – you create the sigil in full consciousness, then focus on just the sigil, so that your subconscious mind gets the work done and your intellect doesn’t get in the way. That’s an oversimplified explanation, but you get the idea. So, rather than my intellect lingering on sadness, I can funnel positive energy into the book itself and give the prayers within a boost.

I’ve filled two pages so far. It feels good to be doing this.

I have been praying to Serqet for protection against poison, and healing from old poisons, since we got to Texas and I made this necklace as a focal point/talisman. I have never felt Her presence, but I have continued to thank Her for Her help. I’ve had a handful of not-so-random dreams with Her touch on them, so I don’t feel like I’m praying into silence.

Last night, a situation was defused that had the potential to be particularly venomous. (That’d be why you saw my thank-you prayer yesterday.) Because of the enormity of what could have been and wasn’t, I wanted to give Her offerings– and, for the first time, I felt Her choose what She wanted among the options I laid out.

I lit a candle and incense at shrine, knelt, and presented the drink and food that She wanted. I thanked Her again and again. And, to my surprise, I felt Her presence as She consumed the offerings, and when She was done, I reverted them gratefully.

I tend to have strong color associations with Netjeru, to the point where the color I’m picking up indicates Who’s around, to the point where I can distinguish even similar shades, like Wesret-orange and Ma’ahes-orange. I would have expect Serqet to be the yellow of the deathstalker scorpion, but She wasn’t– Hers was more of an old, dusty amber color. It’s the first time I’ve gotten enough of a sense of Her to perceive any color at all, and I’m honored that She stepped in and accepted Her offerings.

Dua Serqet for all Her help, past, present, and future.